been quite bored and DEAD lately. there's been nothing to do at home except study. and yeah..i've been mugging the days away...mann...i really hope it's all worth the effort in the end.

just been informed that nike's gonna have a study break..so that means no training till october. i think. that's wat i heard. anyway. gonna keep continuing to train with sec 1s for the time being. i really hope that mrs tan makes their training more..(i never thought i would ever say this.but.) torturous. haha i want a form of tough training. cos i really think i've slacked. yeah..i've been running and trying to keep my fitness level THERE but its kinda difficult . you know? well..maybe i 'm going crazy but i want harsh and tough training . cos i think the main reason is maybe cos i want to challenge myself. i want to know my limitations and maybe try to work on it.

don't know why but when i close my eyes , i feel a deep sense of regret.