i'm feeling quite shitty rite now. I shldn't have started that conversation with her yest. i din noe why but i just had to clear it up with her as soon as possible. but just as i started telling her abt it . she got quite emotional. it made me feel guilty and wrong. but .. somehow i felt somewhat better and more relieved. even though i 've told her abt it. i haven told her abt the thing where i got freaked out. i dun wished to tell her and i dun want her to know too.

ohh..right now, im at fairuz's house and im feeling kinda weird right now. i dunoe why....somehow...i dunoe....actually i dun feel like talking to her..but somehow, we need to just get past this thing and get it over with. blah blah blah. i dun feel like talking about this shitty thing anymore.