through this past two years, i've learnt something about me. Something that i wish was not true.I've learnt that i'm a lousy friend. SERIOUSLY. its not that i dont care its not that i dont bother trying. this past two years, many things have happened. i've been committed to a relationship, family problems, depression amongst many other things. i've been so focused on so many other things that i've lost sight of the important things. some ppl say ' what'd u saying?! you've got tons of friends.' yea i guess to some extent that's true. There are many ppl that i can go right up to and joke and laugh with. but when it comes to the serious things there's only one person i can go to. i'm not saying that i dont appreciate this but it just gets too lonely sometimes seeing that we meet each other everyday and talk everyday. there's only so much i can say to her. so i guess there's no one else to blame except myself when my 'once- close- friends' have turned to other people. i guess i dont have a right to say 'hey that's my friend' cause honestly i should be kicked for not acting like one. i've not been open in sharing my true thoughts and feelings and i gues halfway some of them just simply gave up trying to find out and just got on with life. when i'm still stuck in reverse.







but dear god, i miss them. all of them.