its funny how everything feels so surreal. it sounds cliche but it just feels like yest when i just got my psle cert and just entered tk. and now its almost to the end of 'o's. just one more paper to go. and its the end of tk life. no more 4e9 no more eating in the stuffy canteen no more walking aimlessly around the school no more videoworld no more frisbee during recess. gosh it feels so weird and i feel so old. anw can you believe it?! its just one more paper to go or maybe two for most of you guys. but heck it feels so close to the end. brings tears to my eyes mann. haha. i'm looking forward to the many sleep-in sessions and the slacking and sleep overs that are gonna be happening soon. the chalets! the fun! not forgetting the prom! yay! dresses food friends ! how much funner can it ever get? aft all the papers, i just wanna sit down somewhere watch ppl busy scurrying to places where they shld be doing things they shld do. i'll just sit down there with a smug look on my face saying 'HAHA. SEE THERE! I'VE DONE IT.ITS NO BIGGIE.' ok but who am i kidding. doing it is just a quarter of the job done, the other three quarters is actually seeing the result of the hard work. ok yknow what. its out of our hands anw. let's not think abt it.



i've been thinking alot lately. abt everything's that been going on. amidst the exam stress i notice friends gg seperate ways, no longer acknowledging one another, i see myself doing things which i've promised to stop. nuzul stop loving stop caring. but damn its hard. and i end up doing it. we've gone full circle. but how many full circles have we created? its never gonna end is it? its just one thing or another . we argue abt something petty and then one gets frustrated. or my conscience gets in the way and we just end up where we've left off. never actually clearing up the whole mess. just piling the probs neatly in a stack till one day we just have to face the consequences of the piling. i'm sick and tired of piling and shutting one eye to all this. but we've got to face it someday right. why not let it be now?



watching close friends seperate is never easy. but knowing that there was no clear concrete reason behind the seperation is just shocking. i guess it happens sometimes when you've got nothing left to say to the other person you just lose interest and its simply a case of 'i've got nothing left to say to you. goodbye.' but how is that even possible? i can never figure it out. ultimately even after not talking for quite a while , you'd still have lots to share right. if your friendship was truly sincere then not even time can wear down the comfort that each one provides. its funny how two friends can turn into strangers in just one day