"you'll never know what its worth, till its gone;"

ok this is gonna be a short one before i go on to doing the physics presentation thing. so i got into sc. i'm suppose to be overjoyed and all but somehow all the excitement has gone away. and i'm practically left wondering whether i can actually do this. furthermore, i cant believe i'm gg for exco. VICE PRES. its not that its confirmed or anything that i'll get it. but its kinda multiplied the amount of self doubt. can i really actually do it?

today was a boring and a 'just-shoot-me' day. everything went on in slow motion though i knew that it was probably just my imagination. it feels like tutorials and lectures are going in such a slow pace that i'm just waiting for the next break or just the end of the day. somehow, my brain feels fogged up. ok i'm weird. its like i'm functioning and everything but sometimes i feel like there's this smoke fogging up my mind. its like i'm not thinking the way i want to think.

had a conversation abt S just now, and it was interesting to hear what some ppl had to say abt her. it's really very mean what some ppl actually do to her. i mean come on, i really dont think that she chose to be like that. there's probably very good reasons for her behaviour. and there's no need for them to create voodoo doll and 'i hate miley cyrus' club just cause she likes miley cyrus. for god's sake. i like miley cyrus too. and if she feels like singing or even if she has this thing abt leaving class promptly when the bell rings and reaching on time when class starts. we cant do anything else but just to either tolerate or follow her example. i mean its not bad to be on time and on task. she likes books. so what? i like books too. and just cause she reads more than any of us do, doesnt mean it makes her weird or 'disgusting'. it just makes her different. and whats wrong with that?

10:04 pm 14th april '09