i feel like such a horrible person. i actually had the nerve to say such stuff. and the only reason why i realised i was being so horrible was because of the fact that one of the ppl i was bitching about was sitting right in front of me. i am so very mean. i guess it was the atmosphere i guess it was simply because i wasnt feeling very well, that made me say such a thing. oh my god what's happening to me. i'm turning into a bitch. someone stop me before i fully mutate. ):

maths paper is finally over. traumatising much. i guess they set such papers with the intentions of scaring us out of our wits in search of hope that we mug even harder. i mean c'mon i hardly think its appropriate to do so. some of us might just give up seeing that there's not much hope in even getting a sub pass despite hours of practice. i shouldnt have studied, cause in the end, i didnt know how to do the paper any more than those who didnt actually study. sigh.

Council Training Camp coming up and unsurprisingly, i am not looking forward to it. all i want to do is rest and NOT mug. i was just looking forward to a whole day of rest tmr but was just interrupted with a text msg saying that i have to be in sch for some preparation. Couldn't i just be given a day to rest? to not mug and to not worry for council stuff? i just want some peace and quiet time. to spend some time by the beach , or to even read a book. i want and need a break. but somehow the workings of the universe seem to want to deprive me of such luxury. and the world is pushing my limits. someday i'll break down and wont be able to take it. then only then would you truly see my overwhelming need for rest.

screw you. seriously.