now that i finally have the chance to sit down and reflect on the past year. i find myself reminiscing. and i think about all the could-have-been-s. the feeling of regret is overwhelming.

but i guess it doesn't matter now. cause you're happy with your friends and you showed no signs of ever wanting this friendship. maybe it never even existed in the first place. and i guess i should move on. but there are memories of you and me and how we had so much fun just hanging out. even though there were periods of time when we experienced awkwardness, we somehow managed to work it out. to a certain extent. the awkwardness was my fault. cause we never really got back to how we were before that life altering confession you made. and i'm not lying when i say that i regret it . but i guess you'll never know now would you? how much i wanted it to work. how i much i treasured our friendship. cause you were fooled . just like everyone. and i don't think you even visit this blog. so there's probably zero chances of you reading this. and even if you read this, you might not even know its you.

yea pry me open now, will you?

4:37pm 27th dec '08