from one girl to the next you're bound to find out that she has/had body issues. despite however confident she may be. well this post is just gonna be about mine. to be honest, i'm not a very vain person. as long as i look okay, presentable, it should be fine. i used to be very fit. yup i can imagine people laughing and sniggering upon reading this. but hey i was. for those who don't know me very well, i used to play netball. i wasn't very good to say the truth. but i trained and all. and even had a stint at playing at club level. i trained consistently and even had my own half an hour jog every week. sometimes even twice a week plus some gym. with all these exercise, i was fit, not necessarily super thin but fit nonetheless. had no problem looking at myself in the mirror. i was even forming ab muscles (something very hard for girls) but hey that was all in secondary school. upon entering JC, i had decided to go for something less physically strenuous but challenging in other areas. and for that reason i chose to join the Students' Council. busy as i was planning events coping with the tons of school work that kept piling up along with my other responsibilities. i had less time to exercise or to even think about it. as the days passed without exercise, the person that i saw in the mirror started changing. she looked bigger flabbier , had ugly flabbier thighs. all i could see was a big ball of fats. and i guess the rest of the world could see it too. people started pointing out my size, taunted me even about food. i laughed it off, they are my friends right?

and i guess that's when i stopped looking in the mirror. i don't like looking in the mirror. i dont like what i see.