today was a horrible day. i didnt go to school cause i'm having fever and flu. so i went to the docs' and somehow for one reason or another i felt so lonely while making my way to the docs'. i was contemplating on whether i should just let myself fall cause my head felt so heavy and the ground suddenly seemed so soft. god. it was the weirdest feeling ever. but just to let you know i arived there safe and sound.

i came home and after eating medicine i ended up sleeping for 6 long hours. but when i woke up, i felt better physically and all. but somehow i felt so sad. it was as though i woke up from a nightmare. but after trying to recall , i cldnt really rmb anything. it was so weird cause even i didn't know the reason for such despair.

and when i glanced over at my phone. i didnt see any text msgs nor did i see any mis calls. and my heart dropped another 10 miles or so. and i dont know why i even paid any attention to such minor stuff. cause it sounds ridiculous to me now that i'm typing it out. and i almost started crying there and then.

i wish god would enlighten me of such mood swings. cause its truly taking a toll on me.

and i've got some exco thingy in the morning and also in the aft. breakfast with ms tan. and then dinner with the previous exco. and all i want to do is hide beneath my sheets.

someone save me pls.

30 april '09 10:06 pm