we argue and i get angry. you sigh, exasperated. i hang up. and the next day we pretend that we're okay. and it keeps accumalating. a silent pile of troubles we keep. something we refuse to face. and i'm afraid one day it comes down crashing. will our hold on each other be strong enough to keep us together?

if i could write a note to god
i would ask for all the hate to be swept away.

i cant sleep.

i think i'm on the route to self destruct. each day i go through life, something horrible happens and i keep the emotions to myself. afraid to share with someone. i think abt that person everyday now. and i wonder whether could we have stayed friends. i look back now and i've realised that it was an overreaction. i could have handled things better and if i had, we would still be friends. sometimes i find myself reflecting and thinking abt all the times we hung out. and i miss it. like some stupid fool. and i bet you've forgotten all abt me. cause we act like strangers now. though we ended up in the same school.

i wish i had it normal like everyone else.